1000
Words
With one thousand words inside my mind
Phrases unshaped, I struggle to find
A place to begin as I stutter and speak
I’m scrabbling around for a background or beat
Where is the tone to accompany the tale
I’ve always shrunk down, reducing the scale?
How do I express the consistent struggle
Searching for reason through chaos and rubble.
The rubbish that piles up obscuring the path
That chokes me inside while I stumble and laugh
Seeming so carefree I carry a load
That still seeks to pull me offside and off-road
And bury me deep so I can’t grasp for air
I’m tempted to throw it all in – I don’t care
Where this path is leading – its stripping me down
Till I can’t rely on the masks that I’ve found
Successful before but now they wear thin
I have to admit, I’m used to acting
I pick up the part and play the role well
Forgetting there’s still a real story to tell
That somewhere beneath all these costumes and light
My heart is in pieces kept out of sight.
There’s one thousand words inside my mind
But I’m tired of excuses I’ve hidden behind
So I’m walking outside – its time to be real
And that means accepting the fact that I feel
A mixture of things from the great to the broken
A fusion of feelings, a mystery unspoken
I’ve been mute too long now I’m talking again
These sentences speak of embracing the pain
Accepting the good and the bad of these days
An end to pretending I don’t need to say
And in this expression I’m sure there is joy
Beyond that I’ve known as I’ve sought to employ
These alternate faces, distractions they’ve bought
Deep down I knew their relief was too short
And that times would come where they wouldn’t be
needed
As I opened up, I found love exceeded
The tiny small space I had made for a Saviour
Instead of avoiding, I’ve flourished in favour
Now is the time for new inspiration
Flooding my heart the truth of creation
So I’ll sing from now a song shaped by praise
Safe in his hands, encompassed by grace.
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